Lifestyle deterioration because of technology

Being a person from Gen. Y, I have been (and still am) living through a time of extraordinary technological progression. I have witnessed the changes of the old blocky mobiles, to the slim black and whites, to the flips, to the slim and stylish smartphones; from the old big blocky monitors, to the condensed and slim monitors; to the super slow dial-up which was amazing during it's time, to adsl, adsl2(+), to cables; from chunky t.v.s, to plasma screens, to lcd screens and now to 3d & touch screens; from the progression of video tapes, to vcd, to dvd, to bluray; from floppy disks, to cd, to usb, to hard disks/drives.

Basically what I'm trying to say is that I live in an age where technology has drastically improved over the span of my life. Because the progression of technology has accompanied with my growth into an adult, I have slowly integrated it into my life. Technology is really like poison to me, slowly corroding me. It has really changed me. I used to be proactive as a child, well at least I did some form of exercise or movement but as time went on, technology became easier to access, and it has resulted in me holed up in my room for long hours at home, being anti-social, just sitting there on the computer.

The internet (access of) is probably one of the biggest addiction I have currently. It's because the internet is so vast and knows no bound. It is even possible to say it is a place where infinite amount of content and information have been shared whether it be personal/private or professional.

I'd rant on more but It's almost 4am and my mind is constantly blanking....... so I'll skip some rants..

Just want to rant a few words about our society and the next Gen, Gen Z. I'll start with Gen Z. Gen Z (and late Gen Y) have slowly begun to deteriorate as a result of social media and the internet. I mean, the music videos are pathetic - everyone acting all slutty, extreme exposure of skin... (Not that I dislike it ;] ). I mean our children would look up to singers and stars and if they'll try to imitate their image because it's "cool" (Monkey see, Monkey do...) Society is also getting lax with their coarse languages. I mean shows on t.v. that were suppose to be shown at 10pm when I was a kid being shown at 7-8pm when children are still awake. It's pathetic really. My lecturer (Main reason why I'm spewing all this crap) told me he conducted a survey during the past few years in his class, asking them "at what age would you let your children browse the internet independently" and interesting enough, the ages range slowly grew from 8-9 to 11-13 to 15 years of age. The reason why it's getting higher and higher is because we understand the content, the information, the amount of things that are able to be done online. The internet, our computers, even our phones have really become our virtual reality, our 2nd life - no, it can even be said that it has become an integral part of lives, almost an inherent feature of our lives. It is also interesting that children of very young age play on smartphones, or some form of technological device to entertain themselves.

Really, technology is a drug, a double-edged drug.

I had some epic quote I made on the spot but fuck, blanked out. I NEED SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP

Malcolm out!

Still Alive

I'm still alive... It's 3:16am right as I'm typing. Lately, in the past week, my sleeping habits have gone down the drain. I'm sleeping at like 4am now, before it was like 2am, latest 2:30am....

Anyways, life's been boring as always... I just finished my finals a week or two ago. I pretty much studies 18 hours or so straight, no sleep, from about 1pm 'til 7am the nxt day lol. I mean I planned my study time but I wasn't committed until it was pretty much last minute and I really had to focus. I mean I had two weeks, which quickly shortened to four days, 'til two days, and then finally 24 hours and then I became serious. What a complete joke of a person I am

Although this was very stupid of me, it proved a theory of me - that I'm not dumb because I'm incapable of learning or grasping concepts, rather I choose to put myself in this position because I'm lazy. Thinking about it now, I'm a complete retard, hell, other people wish they can learn but can't and I chose to put myself into this shitty situation. Fuck life. and fuck myself.

Let's talk about something else cause this topic is putting me in a shit and solemn mood.......

Lol ok, I just skim read my past posts and it's already been half a year since I last posted. I'm sooo lazy, cause I gotta switch accounts when I post blogs but I'm too lazy to do that -.-

OK So I did BBA102, ACST101, ECON110 and STATS101 and I failed acst and econ and passed the other two. So for my 3rd sem which was suppose to be my second year but I fucked up, I repeated those units but I didnt tell anyone cause I know a huge shit storm would follow and I'll get fucked on ten-folds. It was exactly what happened as described above only I studied literally and hour or two for each one. Useless. Hopefully I passed or I just fucked my life hard.

Anyways... Serg recently came back to Syd for a few days from Melb and we chilled with each other along with the others. We had an awesome time.

Also Colin invited to me to his birthday 3 weeks ago and I had lots of fun. It really made me miss those days when we were together ( no homo ;) ) but times have changed, we make choices, if you cannot cope or adapt you fall behind... Me being myself, an anti-social-quite-and-reserved person, I pretty much lost connection with majority of my friends but then, as Vernon once said, are they really your 'friends'? He raised the topic and it was intriguing as it woke me up into reality that really, I have very few friends and I'm only really connected to them because of gaming. I mean in all seriousness, which game I play and when I play them could really determine what group I hang out with. I guess occasionally on big events we all hang out together but on a monthly basis lets say, If I play with Vern and stuff we- *thoughts get cut off and realises truth* Ok. Not really. Or maybe..idk... Like would I have pine with Vk and Ian often? Idk...*transport means, car, already 5, etc?*
Anyways where was I... So back to the topic of 'real friends', most of the people I had considered as friends were actually acquaintances or colleagues. As much as I'd hate to admit it, it's the truth. I mean we were connected only through school/uni and we'll never see each other outside, we wouldn't hang out with each other on the weekends. What we have isn't friendship, it's a friendly and shallow relationship amongst peers. People at U Syd really intrigued me. They were pretty tight, hung out with each other, truly friends. Shits on what I once called those as 'friends'.

This talk could continue on and on but I think I should stop for now...I mean it's 5 to 4...4am that is...fml.

I need to sleep or I'll wake up at 3pm feeling like shit again =/

Just one little last thing: I went on a spree with Kisanth on LoL today, felt so good winning. We did lose some games but it wasn't really our fault. kinda. :P Cause I mean we're all to blame. In a normal game if you can't carry you're to blame.


OK one final thing just a list I should put that I should talk about on the next post and so forth:
-Gaming
-Colin B'day (Truly fun experience but so sads)
-Friendship, what of it and what's my situation.
-And dont remember cause It's 4am now and I need sleep lulz
*edit* Cause I'm such a shit perfectionist I must put whatever I think makes it better and more right therefore I must add more stupid dumb shit to talk about and waste more shitty sleep time. I'll probs fap again then sleep...What a joke........*
-New years
-Maybe my B'day Idk




and GOOD FUCKING NIGHT

OR MORNING

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BYE